Yeah I kinda forgot to tell you guys that I am back into my Mary-kate Olsen craze!!! She is sooo pretty omg... Gosh. Seriously. My idol FOR LIFE. haha.
It's sunday 10pm now and i am so exhausted. TESTSSSSS NEXT WEEK!!! (yeah as if thats sth new) Can't wait for next weekends!! Meeting Ameera in town plus Tata's party woohoo!!
WWWOOOOWWWWW i havent been here in ages. (gosh this is SO cliche)
anyway my week was okayyyyy. seriously, good friends are so important. they all make me laugh so hard even when i feel almost half dead.
xinmin "eh aisyah, 7 hours of school left!!" it was like 9.40am btw.
the next day, sandra "you all better not do your countdown shit today!"
HAHAHAHA
I was wondering abt what to blog about but then again.. sec4 life? its plain boring so you wouldnt want to know. oh we had TWO FREAKING MOTIVATIONAL TALKS IN TWO DAYS IN A ROW. freakkkkkk. its like only beginning feb and evryone's making O lvls seem so near which seriously freaks me out!!! (and i still rly cant believe that I'm Os this year!!!! it all happened toooo fast omg. seriously. omg.)
and im kind of getting used to all the tests thingy? but thr was this test this week when i like didnt study. and im not lying srsly so i rly hope that wont happen again. the feeling is freaking scary.
i rly love all my teachers they are all so caring and nice.
I feel the hunger and determination to do well grow and grow evry single day. I NEED TO FREAKING DO GOOD AT Os!!
This week was a rly unhealthy week for me........ i think i ate like 4 times today?!!!! omg someone pls just steal all my fats i dont need them i promise!!
It's only like th end of jan and i can feel soooo many changes ard me. I'm starting to get close to some, growing distant frm some, and even losing some. but you knw what im not gna like entertain all these dramas, srsly i dont have th time to. and im rly sorry if im being selfish but i rly dont need distractions k. (omg since when did i turn to be like this) I think that i have rly bad mood swings... shit.
yippee tata's party next saturday!! what shall i wear.
im gg johore tmr! SHOPPING. YES YES YES!!!!!!! hahaha
test results are o-k. i need to buck up if i want to get into a good jc.
This is from Mr Jo: As women, if you have 5 bestfriends, friends that we fight with, laugh with, go through shit with, your lives are worth living. When you grow older, you will realise you're at the pinnacle of life.
You know sometimes we have friends we hate so much? Those are th friends you will keep for life.
Having just one bestfriend may seem enough, but you can't just expect that one person to be committed to you. She will be, but sometimes we can't be selfish right. And every bestfriend is different. I tell evryone of my bestfriends different things. There are some things you can share with each other, some you can't.
Bestfriends tell each other evrything. -No that's bull.
I'm thankful for all the bestfriends that I have and seriously I know we'll last forever okay. We need each other's support most this year. Let's do it baby.
My weekends have been bad. And I only have a few hours left so I don't think it's gna get any better.
I am so fucking fat okay. And stop telling me that I grew taller and all sorts of bullshit cuz I HAVE NEVER WEIGHED THIS MUCH IN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE. I hate myself okay. Why am I so faaaat
I have officially banned myself from all sweet drinks except for juices and ribena which I can only take once a week. Fast food, CUT DOWN. CUT FREAKING DOWN. I rly like chocolates and ice cream so I wont deprive myself of that, hehe.
My trigonometry sucks like shit. Worst than shit. I need to buck up. omg.
And my parents got into a huge fight today. Idk its a rly long story. and I don't feel like talking to anyone about it. And idk if Im okay. Or if im not. Im justtrying to not think about it. I rly dont need all this drama okay.
And im sorry if im not reply t your msges or msn texts, I dont feel like talking k?
I'm trying so hard to make the best out of my life, because I know I'm nvr gna do it again. But sometimes I rly just dk what to do. and idw to waste my time doing shit. Can you give me the support and guidance that I need? Mum, I'm sorry if I constantly scream and do you shit. You make me so darn angry at times and I do need space. But there are just times when I rly need you and no one else. And im sorry if I'm never there when you need me. This year is gg to be th pits for me, and I swear I have never needed you more in my entire life.
I hate myself okay. Why am I so faaaat
